Is this what happens as you get older?
I find myself referring to a golden age of writing and thinking as of late. I'm not referring to some age such as the Renaissance; rather a time in my life that was rich with words, images, clarity and creativity. I find that I'm not as contemplative as I used to be; simply look back at my blog posts from 7 or 8 years ago. I don't know what's happened in that time but I notice that (lately) I find myself speaking before thinking and that feels so backward from how I used to be. I've told people recently that they've not seen the best version of me yet or that I used to be so much more contemplative.
Here's the best explanation I've come up with.
I'm the heaviest and most out of shape than I've ever been (and generally unmotivated).
I've not been reading and thinking critically (rarely if at all in the past year) like I used to.
I've not been outside like I usually am (some of this is due to a rather harsh winter).
I look forward to creativity re-emerging and the reclaiming that contemplative side of myself that has gotten lost in recent years. Maybe it is getting older, but I think vitality will return as I exercise my physical, mental and spiritual self. Wish me luck.
