My son was born a little over 3 weeks ago... and more than 2 months ago I began a wellness journey that has absolutely doing everything I had hoped for and more!
When you begin to discipline yourself in one area, I believe it spills out into other areas of your life as well. I am experiencing a wave of creativity and synchronicity that is propelling my life forward in a way that I've not felt in a long time and it is exciting!
I'll post more later, particularly as it relates to where this journey is taking me... but rest assured... there hasn't been this much fertile soil in my life since I left for WAS nearly 7 years ago.
June 11, 2016
January 12, 2016
It's More Than...
Every year, (for the past 10 years) it's the same challenge and ultimately the same struggle.
Not this year.
Something's changed.
Something's different.
It's more than just not being able to keep up with my 2 year old.
It's more than realizing I'm going to be a father again.
It's more than just being in the worst shape of my life. (read more than just physically..)
It's more that I've been stuck in my head and not listening to my body.
It's more that I still believe I can think myself into a new way of living.
(Look where that has gotten me.)
It's more than seeing how it affects every aspect of my life.
A recent quote by Neale Donald Walsch got me thinking about how I have to approach this:
Yearning for a new way will not produce it.
Only ending the old way can do that.
You cannot hold onto the old all the while declaring that you want something new.
The old will defy the new. the old will deny the new; the old will decry the new.
There is only one way to bring in the new.
You must make room for it.
It's more than just yearning for it.
It's more that I've not made room for it.
I am making room for the new me.
Not this year.
Something's changed.
Something's different.
It's more than just not being able to keep up with my 2 year old.
It's more than realizing I'm going to be a father again.
It's more than just being in the worst shape of my life. (read more than just physically..)
It's more that I've been stuck in my head and not listening to my body.
It's more that I still believe I can think myself into a new way of living.
(Look where that has gotten me.)
It's more than seeing how it affects every aspect of my life.
A recent quote by Neale Donald Walsch got me thinking about how I have to approach this:
Yearning for a new way will not produce it.
Only ending the old way can do that.
You cannot hold onto the old all the while declaring that you want something new.
The old will defy the new. the old will deny the new; the old will decry the new.
There is only one way to bring in the new.
You must make room for it.
It's more than just yearning for it.
It's more that I've not made room for it.
I am making room for the new me.
September 16, 2015
The Ministry of Wayfinding
It's been a month since I've been re-licensed in the Church of the Brethren.
And all I can say is that it is different this time around.
For the first 12 years that I was licensed, it just felt like something I had to do since I was in pastoral ministry. Yet this time around, there's a sense of heightened accountability that I didn't have during the previous years. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I had some wilderness time away to better clarify that call. Maybe it's because I now have a family who shares that affirmation. One thing is for sure though, I have the affirmation of my ministry today in a way that I didn't prior. I'm involved in Outdoor Ministry/Education in ways that expand beyond just my local context.
This licensing is a reminder that I am called to be 'coyote' to the church. Though many may not understand what that means entirely it has been the best way I know to relate to the church. There has also been a few (so called mystical) moments that have occurred in the span of me being re-licensed. And language that once inflated the ego now somehow is helping me gain a better sense of just what 'coyote' ministry to the CoB will be. At my licensing service, one of my supporters shared how coyote also has come to mean one who is a 'wayfinder' for others.
Maybe that's a better description of my calling to the church.
A wayfinder.
P.S. As part of my sense of accountability, I plan to blog more frequently as well. I find that this medium has helped me piece together my best thoughts/ideas/vision for integrating nature connection and spirituality so I hope to be more regular in that regard. In the meantime, get outside and connect!
And all I can say is that it is different this time around.
For the first 12 years that I was licensed, it just felt like something I had to do since I was in pastoral ministry. Yet this time around, there's a sense of heightened accountability that I didn't have during the previous years. Maybe it had to do with the fact that I had some wilderness time away to better clarify that call. Maybe it's because I now have a family who shares that affirmation. One thing is for sure though, I have the affirmation of my ministry today in a way that I didn't prior. I'm involved in Outdoor Ministry/Education in ways that expand beyond just my local context.
This licensing is a reminder that I am called to be 'coyote' to the church. Though many may not understand what that means entirely it has been the best way I know to relate to the church. There has also been a few (so called mystical) moments that have occurred in the span of me being re-licensed. And language that once inflated the ego now somehow is helping me gain a better sense of just what 'coyote' ministry to the CoB will be. At my licensing service, one of my supporters shared how coyote also has come to mean one who is a 'wayfinder' for others.
Maybe that's a better description of my calling to the church.
A wayfinder.
P.S. As part of my sense of accountability, I plan to blog more frequently as well. I find that this medium has helped me piece together my best thoughts/ideas/vision for integrating nature connection and spirituality so I hope to be more regular in that regard. In the meantime, get outside and connect!
March 06, 2015
Adaptation
I first heard about the 7 P's during my Wilderness First Responder training.
It goes a little something like this:
Prior Proper Planning Prevents Piss Poor Performance.
Simply put, have a plan of action ahead of time.
We'll get back to this in a moment...
I believe that many people in the North American Church are experiencing what can only be described as climate change of the soul. The oasis places where we once were nourished are drying up and they no longer carry meaning for us like it once did. This drying up of the soul is permeating all other avenues of our lives and there are no signs that it is going to get better. Let's be clear, this time will not be about death… it will be about life. It will reinvigorate our atrophied souls. It was over ten years ago that I wrote the following:
What we are experiencing isn't something new. If the interior is beginning to look less like a temperate rainforest and more like the American southwest, then it's my belief that the wilderness/desert period has already begun.
As our faith landscapes are changing then it becomes crucial to understand how this affects the ecology of the soul. The more we are beginning to understand about place-based spirituality, the more we are discovering how important our ties to the land really affect our spiritual well-being and formation. To borrow from the language of evolutionary biology, it's all about how well we've learned to adapt. If we've grown accustomed to living only in one bio-region, then we may not be as prepared to live in another, much different one, especially if the terrain is harsher. The same can be said for our spiritual development.
This is where I come back to my prior point of the North American Church experiencing climate change of the soul. It's also where we must apply the 7 P's to our faith formation as the church struggles to move ahead. In order to make the kinds of discoveries this wilderness/desert journey entails, it will start with the church needing to practice self-abandonment; something (least historically) hasn't done very well. If the church hasn't exactly taken the lead on this, then where do we turn to once this faith landscape moves from an agrarian spirituality to a desert spirituality?
We have a template...
We have elders...
It was the folks who walked away from empirical Christianity in the beginning of the 4th century CE. and we refer to them today as the Desert Fathers and Mothers. I think it's time we get reacquainted with these elders who believed in "their time" that the church had become overly comfortable. It's time that we adapt our way of being to the wilderness/desert spirituality. Up to this point we've only talked about it... now the time has come for us to begin living it.
It goes a little something like this:
Prior Proper Planning Prevents Piss Poor Performance.
Simply put, have a plan of action ahead of time.
We'll get back to this in a moment...
I believe that many people in the North American Church are experiencing what can only be described as climate change of the soul. The oasis places where we once were nourished are drying up and they no longer carry meaning for us like it once did. This drying up of the soul is permeating all other avenues of our lives and there are no signs that it is going to get better. Let's be clear, this time will not be about death… it will be about life. It will reinvigorate our atrophied souls. It was over ten years ago that I wrote the following:
"A time is coming
when the North American Church will begin experiencing that which feels more
like death than life. Attempts to cover over this period will only further
mitigate our sense of aliveness. This
aliveness in Jesus will look very different than North American Christianity,
which is full of emptiness and fear. This aliveness will look more like
indigenous and even non-Christian traditions, which we are beginning to
understand are more rooted in the church than North American Christianity
attempts to be. The church will need to be reconstructed in
order to better understand who God is and who we are. In the time shortly after,
it will be forced into a wilderness period even as she refuses to do so." (Taken from a July 2003 journal entry)
What we are experiencing isn't something new. If the interior is beginning to look less like a temperate rainforest and more like the American southwest, then it's my belief that the wilderness/desert period has already begun.
As our faith landscapes are changing then it becomes crucial to understand how this affects the ecology of the soul. The more we are beginning to understand about place-based spirituality, the more we are discovering how important our ties to the land really affect our spiritual well-being and formation. To borrow from the language of evolutionary biology, it's all about how well we've learned to adapt. If we've grown accustomed to living only in one bio-region, then we may not be as prepared to live in another, much different one, especially if the terrain is harsher. The same can be said for our spiritual development.
This is where I come back to my prior point of the North American Church experiencing climate change of the soul. It's also where we must apply the 7 P's to our faith formation as the church struggles to move ahead. In order to make the kinds of discoveries this wilderness/desert journey entails, it will start with the church needing to practice self-abandonment; something (least historically) hasn't done very well. If the church hasn't exactly taken the lead on this, then where do we turn to once this faith landscape moves from an agrarian spirituality to a desert spirituality?
We have a template...
We have elders...
It was the folks who walked away from empirical Christianity in the beginning of the 4th century CE. and we refer to them today as the Desert Fathers and Mothers. I think it's time we get reacquainted with these elders who believed in "their time" that the church had become overly comfortable. It's time that we adapt our way of being to the wilderness/desert spirituality. Up to this point we've only talked about it... now the time has come for us to begin living it.